Getting a Little Candid

Now I know blogs aren't supposed to be used as diaries. They're meant to build your portfolio and make you somewhat of a reputable writer/reporter/journalist. Show that you have the skills to get a company's or an employers attention. But once in a while, it's a good thing to show the world that everyone has doubts when comes to their abilities and it's okay to admit that. I think so, anyway.

Although I am very inconsistent (I am aware of this), I do love to write. I am a very opinionated person with lots to say. I have a variety of interests and will blab about them if I am given the chance. Really, I can go for hours. But when it comes to publishing these thoughts and putting them out in the universe, I get a ton of doubts and insecurities.

Questions pop into my head that make me even more anxious than I already was. "Will people even care about what I write? Do I sound smart or ignorant? Is that the right opinion? Did I even write that correctly?" A good writer comes off as intelligent, intriguing, and sometimes sociable. You're supposed to grab the attention of any and all that read your articles. But that's hard to do without getting into your own head sometimes.

It may even get to the point where you don’t want to share your writing with others. I know that’s the whole point of journalism, but that fear of judgement can be crippling. It never goes away. Even as you age. That whole idea of you not caring about other people’s opinions as you get older just isn’t true. Oh how I wish it was though.

Having a passion about something and wanting to share your thoughts on it to only be shot down by your own crippling anxiety is the worst feeling in the world. You literally silence yourself. “Just have confidence”. It’s definitely easier said than done. It’s almost a chore to build that confidence too. But taking baby steps is probably the best way to do so. That’s essentially what this this is right now.

Posting this (or anything at all) is my way of building my confidence and skills. Anything you feel comfortable enough to put into the world is good enough. That’s what I’ve learned as I’ve gotten older,